the 100th day of Bachik's passing.

al-fatihah

these are some of the pictures of phd defenses i found on ERIM website. im all excited looking at the pictures! i went to phd defense (viva voce) before, but from the look of it, nothing of this magnitude.

can almost feel the excitement and the rush of emotions. i wanna be one of them. and i will, insyaallah..

i obviously have none.

salam! hey! hi! :)

well... well.....,...

*tade idea plak dah nak tulis ape! td time solat sket nya byk idea!! huuu...ok, nmpk sgt solat tak khusyuk -__-*

*5 minutes of jari-jemari statik atas keyboard*

*ayah called a few minutes ago. talked about abang 100th day tahlil.

i miss my brother...

i miss him my heart aches so much, i cant breath...

i miss him...

ateh died 5 years ago, and i still cry myself to sleep when the thoughts of her come to mind...

i miss ateh too... 
the holes they left would never heal...

life could never be the same...

ever...

*alang just called. i know she tried so hard not to cry too when i was choking on my tears. asked me to pack my things and sleep at her place. but i said no. got class tomorrow. i need to do some revision, i said. and after some failed attempts to calm me down, we finally laughed at the stupid jokes of my 'imaginary' boyfriend(s) and the story of her gedik husband giving 11 roses yesterday. for eleven years of them being together i guess. the line went off before she could finish her gedik story.

i feel better now. 

p/s - this post is not intended to be sad. i wanna write about what a lovely day i had today. but, divergence/distraction is part of life. we could never be sure of anything until it happens.